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Full Details for Query #207927 |
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19-May-2009 | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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COOK : KACHALA : MILLER : MOROSKI : PERETTI | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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I am searching for my daughter Cassidy Ida Peretti who was born 11/19/2000 in Edison NJ and my son Vincent J Peretti who was born 1/18/2002 in Perth Amboy NJ. I was incarcerated 2wks after Vincents 1st BD. Although I begged and implored the court to allow me even just one supervised visit i was denied time and time again. My family court atty was ill and had a liver transplant so I had virtually no one working for me. My criminal atty refused to work with my family court atty even though it was stressed to him how vitally important it was for them to work together as a team to devise a strategy as so I would not loose my children. Unfortunately statistics show that over 65% of women with children who are incarcerated end up loosing them solely due to the length of their incarceration. That was the case with me. I have learned some very hard won expensive lessons in my life, this was by far the most devastating by far.(physically,emotionally and spiritually)I became a paralegal in prison and divorced my husband who had a very bad drug problem. I tried to hide his addiction from my family and thought I could fix a man who was diseased beyond a power much greater than mine. I also have 2 older children Briana miller 20 and Gary Miller 19. They are in my life and briana just had my first grand daughter. It is very bittersweet because Briana when she was 15 was very jealous of the babies and her and Gary lived on the next block at my moms house until I got a place big enough for all of us. I own my part in the events that took place. I was in recovery myself and know that I can carry the message but I can NOT carry the addict. I had to quit my job as a medical office manager because My ex would lock himself in a room for hours or days at a time. It would've been like leaving a one and two yr old by themselves. So being an ex-dancer I knew girls who wanted to work for me as I had made a name for myself by appearing in Howard Sterns Movie and TV shows as "The Kielbasa Queen" and was also on WWF Wrestling and a professional arm wrestler. So I opened an adult entertainment agency over the internet so I could book the girls and collect commission. That is a long involved story that will be told in detail in my upcoming book. Anyhow I found a house for all of us to live. I was fortunate enough to get sec8 and I planned to go back to school and rough it on public assistance until i finished my degree in Adaptive Phys Ed. The day I was moving I was arrested. I was told they just wanted to ask me some questions and bring me back home. That would be the last time I saw my babies. I literally cried for months. I could not believe that after staying with my mom for 3wks she had DYFS come and take them to a foster home. My mom hated my ex and never wanted me with him but I don't believe innocent children should pay for a father they were completely powerless over. I never got updates or any reports re:the babies. I begged for pics and was sent a few pics one time. I started a parenting program for the women in the county jail as well as founded a very successful drug program for the inmates. I taught the women about recovery and shared my experience, strength and hope with them. I actually saved 3 women who are still in recovery today. Two of them got to keep their babies and not go to prison because I worked from jail to get them placed in facilities for women and children. So for that I am blessed. My nun told me God had a purpose for me and when his work was done through me I would be released. She is one of the wisest women I know. I watched a TV show in prison called "Tug of War" a 4yr old boy was taken out of his fosterhome and was in the process of adoption and I was hysterical. I thought to myself,"this is what I would be doing to my children if I got out tomorrow and went to get them. As much as I didn't want to believe it my babies knew me as a stranger who would be taking them from who they knew as Mommy and Daddy. The next day I ran accross 1kings chapter3 in the bible about the 2 women who had babies 3days apart. The one mother rolled over on her infant and smothered him and switched babies. When king Solomon tested his gift of wisdom and demanded a sword to cut the baby in half the "real" mother did NOT hesitate to say her baby died even though that was not true. It was more important her baby live. That was God talking to me and teaching me that a truly good mother is SELFLESS not SELFISH. She puts her children before ANYTHING. I must admit that until that moment I never knew how to do that. I was almost at peace with my decision because I knew for the first time in my life I put my children before a man, a drug and my own personal needs and feelings. I was told they were with a family by the name of Kachala from either woodbridge or colonia NJ. I think they went to The Peppermint Tree school in seawaren nj. Cassidy has big healthy chubby cheeks and is always smiling sandy blonde hair and blue eyes. Vinny had straight sandy blonde hair with blue eyes. I know that the adoptive father is of African/American descent and his wife was a heavy set very nice white women. I have nightmares constantly and I usually can not go a day without crying at some point in the day. As a mother I just worry that they are ok and happy, healthy and loved. I don't want to disrupt anyones life. I am very grateful to the couple who have cared for them when even my own family turned their back on my innocent angels. I named Cassidy after a grateful dead song and she used to love to dance to it with me. They also loved BLues CLues. I would love to be able to even see pictures of them. I need them to know I ache everyday because nothing or no one could ever fill that empty void that was left inside of me. It would be even better if I could somehow be involved in their life. I was told that they will come and look for me. I torture myself and watch shows like "The Locator" and cry for days. I love my children more than life itself. The saddest thing is my love for children and their natural attraction to me. Everyone of my older kids friends say they wish I was their mom. My kids brag to everyone how they have the best mom. My mother said something that really bothered me though. When Briana was pregnant I mentioned how it was kicking up some very sad feelings for me. My mom is a very intelligent powerful woman and I think that's why I was taken back by her response which was"Look at it this way Niecee, God replaces one with another. You replace a light bulb when it blows out for petes sake!! You do NOT replace children.(is it just me?) Another time I told her of the horrible nightmares I am tormented by and she responded that I didn't have to worry because the babies were fine. I am pretty sure they are, but did she ever think that I am NOT fine. I now live in South River NJ. I am getting married in Sept this year so my name will be Denise Moroski. my phone number is 732-387-8601H and 732-589-4616C. I know because of their ages I have to practice the patience and acceptance God has so graciously blessed me with. I pray for my angels everyday and night | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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